New art

Yay finished another two pictures...
Woot!...
thx kar wei for scanning it again!

and here they are!



* I'm sleeping because you gave me a reason *




* I'll always be here for you, be it rain or shine. But you better not make me do it too often >.< *


well that's all for this post..
later..
oh and
p/s enjoy the art leave some comments while you are at it.
TQ!

Damnations >.<

Another week almost gone.. It has not been an exactly good week,but it was also a good week for every other damn thing. First damn thing that happened is that damned message from scouts. Well it's not like give a damn bout that K.N.N. team. But hey since they wanna throw me out of the team, be my guest. But one fact is for sure I'll still have to wear scouts T and uniform to school on them damned Wednesday and no matter how phark up they are about non members to wear their shirt, i don't give a damn.

A new term also brings new damnations. Extra classes on sat, damn there goes my sleeping time. Ah well since school began I didn't expect to be able to get a good sleep. I have to get up early almost every damn day. Ah well... no comments...

[I think i'm using lot of damn today Xp. Maybe because I read a Roald Dahl book on Wednesday and somehow like a word in the book. "Damnations" lol... that's such a supendious word.. hahha... I like Roald Dahl's books, so much of made up words, and a imagination that surpasses mine. ]

Work some how began pilling up as soon the new term began. I'm already starting to feel dizzy just thinking how much there is to do. Damn, I can't be like this. Gotta get my spirits up... Zah!

The next damn thing that will be happening will be a change of e math teacher again... I mean like what the hell... changing again? what the phark is the school up to? Come on like one history teacher who can teach no shit is bad enough.. now another teacher which i have no idea how she teaches like.Perhaps only time will tell..

Toady was rather damned too. Physics class was a din almost every one was playing some stupid game at the back of the class.. Though the teacher did teach. But not really to how a normal teacher teach, but at least he's still teaching. But anyways out of the whole damn class some did pay attention to what he's teaching...

Well another damn day gone, I've another lesson at 4.30.. and it's still quite early and i'm running out of things to write about. Perhaps that's all i can think of today. That's all i suppose.

*End*

Madness

Perhaps madness is taking over my brain, or perhaps this is the real me.
I don't know.. Perhaps I'm already on the brink of insanity.
Well life still goes on..
The holidays are short, and i can already see the end of it.
ah well.. results are out already anyways.. 7A's and 3B's
Man what's with the 3B's ..
I'm sick of getting B for my physics and biology .
The other B is moral. About that it has always been well up and down.
But a lil more effort should do the trick ba..
Well anyways I did complete one thing in the holidays.
Final Fantasy 7- Dirge of Cerebus
A story of Vincent Valentine.
I so so so love the story and game play.
I am so going to play it again after SPM haha..

Well life's been ok so far this hols i guess.
I am reading a book called city of bones and it's rather interesting.
The story about a 10 or perhaps 13 year old kid whose bone was found 20-25 years after his death.
He'd been severely abused in his life.
His age still can't be determined even after radiological testing.
They can only assumed the time of his death with the presence from the coin they found in his pocket.
wow.. creepy and the main character wants to find out the killer and book him.
can't wait to read more..
ok book time..
Waa nice book ...
want to read more ..
haha.. funny how a book can make me addicted.. Xp
Well later peeps..

Tagged by my mui! Xp

5 Rules:

Put your music player on shuffle.

Press forward for each question.

Use the song title as the answer to every question.( write artist name by the side)

With the answers, comment on how it relates to the question.

Tag your mates.


1. How am I feeling today?
Yang Guang Zhai Nan ( Jay Chao)
*Maybe ba cuz this morning swim under the hot sun.

2. Will I get far in life?
Ai Zhuan Jiao （Show)
* Until it reaches the love corner?

3. How do my friends see me?
Zhuan Su Tian Shi (Tank)
* Really ma?

4. Will I get married?
Zhi Lian (Show)
* Self loving? Seriously.. =.= but if according to the song lyrics a girl will make me not self loving anymore.
so where is the girl? Xp

5. What is my best friend’s theme song?
Lan (Tank)
* NO idea... Perhaps..

6. What is the story of my life?
Ying Wei Wo Xiang Xin (Da he Chang)
*Yeah.. because I believe..

7. What was high school like?
Forever Love ( Wang Li Hong)
* Forever love? weird

8. What’s in store for this weekend?
Kiss Goodbye ( Wang Li Hong)
* yeah it's over... >.<

9. How is my life going?
Zhao Zhi Dao. Ai ( Lu Xue Rui)
* Maybe it's right. If I had know love earlier.

10. How can I get ahead in life?
Tiamor ( Fei Lun Hai)
* OK i don't know what Tiamor means.. Xp

11. What’s the best thing about your friends?
San Guo Lian (Tank)
* lol voon and his addiction to san guo yan yi..

12. What song will they play at my funeral?
Fei Ni Muo Shu (Tank)
* do i so deserve to die? Xp

13. How does the world see me?
Lian Ai-ING (Wu Yue Tian)
* i'm not in love! O.O!!

14. Do people secretly lust for me?
Chen Li De Yue Guang (Tank)
* ok this has no meaning.. or maybe someone lust for me at night.. haha

15. How can I make myself happy?
Wo Bu Hui Chang Ge (Show)
* i can be happy when I can't sing? @~@

16. What should I do with my life?
Qian Nian Lei (Tank)
* Tears for a thousand years.... zzzz

17. Will I ever have children?
Pride of tomorrow (June)
* they will be my pride of tomorrow? how cool...

18. What would you strip to?
Piano ( Fan Wei Qi)
* ok seriously NO! weird question...

19. What does your mom think about you?
Shuang Zhi Xing (Guang Liang)
* ok she has two sons.. so maybe she hopes both of us becomes stars?
Because the title is twin stars

20. What is your deep, dark secret?
Dong Le (Tank)
* lol.. the title in English is I know.

21. What is your mortal enemy’s theme song?
I believe (Fan Wei Qi)
*Yeah he must believe

22. What is your personality like?
Doubt & Trust (June)
* Yup that's so me! ^^

23. What song will be played at your wedding?
Yi Shou Jian Dan De Ge (Wang Li Hong)
* A simple song.. haha

24. Your overall theme song?
Qing Tian Yu (Tank)
* my most fave song!
and also a song in one of my plot...
muahahahahah....

Life's a big drama without a script

The fascinating thing about life is we are always so engross into watching dramas and wondering how our friends life is progressing. Perhaps even takes joy from watching the ups and downs in other's life. Maybe they do not realise that their own life is a big drama itself. Or in other words a big adventure.

Life is a big drama everyone has a role in, whether it is the movie star on T.V. or even your little kitten. The only difference of it from the ones we watch on T.V. is the drama we are acting in does not have any script and the future is unpredictable. Through out the whole drama, we learn and change and sometimes even experience some experience which could not be described into words. The feeling of hate, love, lust, anger, passion, sadness, happiness, depression, guilt and even more. No matter how much we want to describe these feeling, no words can clearly express them to others. The way we know about it is by experiencing it ourselves.

The end of one story is a beginning to another. That's what our drama is like. when it's time for us to go, the story continues with our child, and goes on and on until the end of the world. Perhaps everything is link together in a circle which could not be broken.

You have to know that the drama we are in revolves around you and not around other.So why let your own life revolve around other people? Why let yourself think that your life is just plain boring? We are acting in our very own drama series and it IS definitely more interesting than others. So what are you waiting for? Find your story, know your role and choose your own ending.

To my gramps!

The trip to gramps this time was rather interesting.
Even though it was only a few days but the village life is a rather good change of this damn city life. Inhaling cleaner air is somehow nice.
The sickening smell of carbon dioxide is enough to make one long for more clean air.
I went there on wed then the clock on the wall showed 2.00 p.m.
Reach there rather late in the afternoon.
Got surrounded by cuzzins..
Got my hands rather hand tied taking care of em.
Ah well luckily it's not always.
Played DON with my brother after my grandma finish watching her show.
Played till 12.00++ before going to bed.

Woke up the next day at 6.00
Got up and snapped a few pic...

The dragon fruit farm beside my gramps house.


Gramps front gate.. Xp


Beautiful sky.. Xp

After that i followed my parents and my grandpa to my aunt's shop in kajang.


My aunt's and uncle's shop.

There I got acupuncture treatment.
Two stabs in my backbone and two on my leg with electric current attached to it.
It was a shocking sensation.
Haha.. shocking..

Rushed back to JB today which is Friday the 30th of May.
Then went for tuition. other than that life went on as usual...

This concludes my entry..

later!

Nothing less and nothing more

Elo peeps, da blogga's back...
It's been a busy month..
Exams man.. urgh... Brain jammed pack with stuff...
Ah well.. I finally get to take a few days off now..
The exams was quite ok i guess..
Got a few of the papers back and am quite satisfied with it..
Though I still need the extra kick in my arse to get me going higher.

My old phone went swimming with me last Wednesday.
And boy, there was so much water i bet I could rear a fish in there.
Anyways, It turned out ok i suppose got a new phone back instead.
Was happy bout the new phone.
Happy! =]

My birthday passed this month on the 13th.
It was amidst the exam week.
And some good fwenz still remember( i don't mean the dudes in school though)..
Kawai gave me a tree painting..
And boy was he good with poster color.
Another birthday gone.

Another fwen said that I have been MIA for a while.
I suppose I have been.
I haven't sms with that fwen for ages.
Well actually I didn't really have time to begin with this month.
Since exam is over, I think I'll just sms and catch up with a few fwenz.

Exam are over and extra class just started.
So I'll be going back to school till Wednesday.
Then on the day itself, I'll be going back to gramps.
Will be back on Friday though.
The next week, I'll just be at home.
Going here and there actually restricts my time a lil..
But what the heck, I'll just have to make do with it.

Damn, why am I making short sentences.
Ah perhaps that's what I'm feeling now.
Ah well..
That's all this time i guess..
Laterz..

Renaissance?

It this it?
Is this the rebirth of my blog?
I have no idea.
Purhaps there will be a rebirth,
a renaissance for my blog.

Testing one, two.. Oh! No one's around....

I find it very amusing because the only person who frequently visit my blog is myself. And the things I post here are also read by myself. No one visits, or even bothers to visit. Well I suppose that's what unpopularity brings. lol.

I wonder whether I should continue blogging. Maybe I should just stop this. I have nothing much to share. Even if I have anything to say no one cares. What a wonderful life huh.

Well even if no one want to read I might just as well inform those who took the pain to visit. This is perhaps my last entry. I won't continue anymore. Well this finally the end huh.

Will I continue? i don't know...

Anyways bye........

Brink of Insanity

I'm stuck, confused and messed up.
People are pushing me to my limits.
I am losing it.
I have so much to do.
I have so little time.
People are so difficult to come to terms.
I'm pissed.
I know my work can't be perfect.
But beggars can't be choosers.
Instead of complaining, they should contribute.
Instead of waiting they should take the initiative.
Don't they know many hands make light work?
How can they continue to force me up the wall?
I'm really losing it.
I think I might go insane real quick.
Is the needle in the haystack just so hard to find?
Well damn it all lar....

Dot Dots and even more dotz

Recently life's nothing more than a dot, you might as well call it a blotch. A black dot which clearly symbolises a halt or maybe hesitation or you might even say delay. Well to me a dot is more than a dot. I dot when I have nothing much to say. I dot when I just want something to end. And I dot when I do not know what to do. Sometimes, I even dot because I'm just to lazy to carry on.

But well there is not much knowledge to a dot. I mean everyone can make out what a dot is. So life's a dot. And that's the end of what it is hahaha... One think I'm not really feeling great about is going to scouts... I'm SUPPOSED to have fun there but I just find it so very very dull. But I don't think I would be going anymore. DOT! Xp

Next week is another new week and every thing is going to happen all over again. But there is something I'm looking forward to next week. There will be a recording session for me next Wednesday. Woot! And I meant singing recording session. Haha.. I might post it here. Though it is not just me but also with Wee Chong. I'm just a newbie singer so don't expect too much from my singing lol. And I'll have a solo recording during the end of the year.. Wa so excited.. Me, I mean my very own singing recording lol..

So excited le.. haha... ok la i guess i'll end it here...

& so he DOTTED.

My Ice Kacang sort of life...

Ice Kacang a sweet and popular dessert here in Malaysia. A plate of ice shavings, coated with sweet syrup which you can either choose the normal syrup coating or a "gula melaka" coating. Embedding this ice sculpture is the unforgettable sweet corn which is my absolute favorite . Hidden beneath the ice kacang is the main ingredient the kacang or normally known as the red beans. Among the red beans are what my mother would call " Ah Tap Zhi " which is hidden like treasure. Given it's sweet, cool combination, no wonder it's love by most Malaysian.

Come to think of it, my life is like the Ice Kacang ; a combination of culture, habits, traditions and perhaps even the latest teenager craze. If I am a Ice Kacang, let just say I am a crazy individual coated with moral values from my parents & with the latest teenage fashion embedded into me. Hidden in me is the knowledge and experience I have gained in this whole life and the treasure would be the special and unique talent that each and every one of us have. Some perhaps more than others, but I'm very happy with what I have. That is me, the one of a kind Ice Kacang.

And that is how I am, a plate of Ice Kacang. Though a bit crazy at time. Ok.... make that usually crazy, but I am still who I am. No one says that every one would like me. I mean is it even possible to make the whole world to fall in love with you. Even if there is a chance, the chances are like trying to breath 6 feet under water with a 5 feet snorkel. Which also means it is impossible.. lol..

But what the heck, I'll just life the best I can and do the best I can do.
So to those who hate me or have something against me take your hate somewhere else.
I'm not worth your hate.. lolz...
Well looks like this Ice Kacang have to go back to the freezer before he melts..

& with a hop he jumped back into the freezer

& he reads manga

If you ask me what I'd do to take a break, I'd say I'll read manga!
Yep nothing like reading manga to relax.
And what's on my to read list for manga,

Manga that I have to wait for the release weekly( sometimes monthly)

1) MxO
2) D grey man
3) Naruto
4) Bleach
5) Fairy Tail
6) Psyren
7) Double Arts
8) Soul Eater
9) Monster Soul

Manga That I have finish reading and is still my all time fav.

1) MAR
2) Midori No Hibi

Well that's all..
Man 9 comic to keep up with is surely not easy lol...
Well luckily some of them updates only once monthly.
I guess that's all for now...
Time to rush for tuition...

If you ever wonder where to read mango from,
go to,

http://www.onemanga.com
http://www.mangafox.com

& he disappears like a ninja

Of Blending in and forgetting myself.

Let's just treat me an individual as a ping-pong ball and the society as the sea. Whenever the wave pushes me left I go left, when it pushes me right, I go right. This is how I have been living. People say that I "tiada pendirian" (meaning I don't have my own stand) for just going with the flow. Yet how could I anchor myself on this vast sea called society and if I could, what would prevent me a mere ping pong ball from sinking into the deep abyss of the sea.

For any attempts to go against the flow there is an equal amount of negative feed backs. A very fine example of these are :

"Walau like that also don't dare ar...So kia si"

or

"Do like that for what? You think people will notice you?"

or

"Come on la brother what are you thinking? "

and even

"Why today you act so weird one?"

And if you continue doing so you'll get nicknames from people like "penakut" , "mei you zhong", "ball-less" and so forth. Come to think of it, people had been going with the flow since who knows when. For every era, there will be a particular type of fashion sense, taste and ambition. If you don't call this going with the flow, then what do you think that is called? Naive or dumb?

And the ability to be able to blend oneself into society is by forgetting oneself. Only by doing so can one merge with the society. If you ask me whether blending in is important, well I think it is.
When you blend in with society, you'll be able to learn more about people, life and experience it first hand. When you finally what going with the flow taste like, then only can one learn more about oneself as an unique individual.

As a guy once said " To be able to get over one thing is to be able to go through the entire phase, and fully experience how it feels like." and yes, be it pain, love, hatred, sorrow and even joy. Go through it all then detached yourselves from it. When it comes back again, go through it all over again. It's the same as going with the flow. Go with it for awhile, be engrossed, be totally absorbed by it. Then almost unknowingly, slip out of it. Soon the trend will lose it's value of attractiveness. So when the next, and the next and the next wave comes, do the same thing and you'll soon find yourself learning more and more about this place we live in ; this place we call Earth.


& I float uncertainly like the ping pong ball...

Another day!

The week has ended again. Though my life doesn't seem to come to an abrupt halt. And tomorrow morning, life's gonna continue as usual with 4 hours of tuition right after I wake up. Some fella told me to sleep less and live life to the fullest because we get to sleep all we want when we die (and it doesn't mean that we can wake up even if we want to). Not a bad advice eh, I guess I might just have to assimilate it into my life.

Lets talk about today!

My dream which I could vividly remember, ended intantly. Though I had already turn my phone into silent mode, the over familiar vibration from my phone just seemed to resonate with my half awake self. Reluctantly I picked up my phone.

"Huh Kim?"

(picks up phone)

"Hello?"
“Eh Yee Siang are you coming to school later?"
"No... why?"
"Oh can you come because we not enough people for perbarisan"
"Oh... mmmmkayz. "
"Thank you le.."
"Arh.."

(hangs up)
(phone rings again)

"hello?"
"Eh yee siang you have to come like now."
"Urh I know, I'm going to take a bath first."
"kk"

(hangs up)

After preparing, I went to school. I guess I was still half asleep when I reached school. It sure does take time to wake up.. Little did I expect Sir Tan to be there when I arrived.What a suprise it was. The Scout-lings were taking their Usaha badge.And well they got the badge without doing the log book. Instead they only had to recite the "Kesetiaan Pengakap" and " Undang-undang pengakap".. they did knotes next. It was rather fun to see them do it. And then there was kim with her numbers in various language for counting down.

A bit later, the teacher called and we were to stand under the hot sun in our respective Uniform group to respect the person who came and "merasmikan" the majlis. I went home straight after that. His speech was like so monotonous, it'd be better I just read it off the paper he was holding myself.

Anyway the rest of the day was pretty much the same..

English tuition then followed by Ms. Lim's lesson
Which gives a total of 5 hours of lesson time..
Ain't it great to have time well spent?

So concludes the day of Yee Siang..

& life continues..

Altering between past, present and future

The world we are living in now is not of the present. For most of us, we are living either in the past or the future. Confused? Allow me to elaborate more. There are those people who just can't seem to forget how heart broken they were when they broke up. They try to move on and yet they are trap in yesterday's shadow. Trap in a dark vortex of yesterday, they are oblivious toward their surroundings and neglecting those who care about them. And this type of people is the past people.

Following these people are the future people. They are forever saying "for the future", "we'll see in future", "see first" and etc. These people are also those who neglect those around them. Not only are they able to move on faster than any one should, but they are also forgetting the past faster then they should ever. Caught in their never ending RAT and PAPER chase, they just move on further and further away for those who care about them. Well future people, SA-YO-NA-RA~~~ See you in the future!!

If you ask me which one am I classified as well I am an ALTER-NER! Why well because I'm living in the future, past and present. well not to say I'm living in all three at once but always changing between them. Yet I still don't understand why I'm more afraid of the future then the present and the past? Am I too a past person? I really don't understand. To think I'd never ask myself about whether I am really an ALTER-NER. Or am I just a simple HAS BEEN...

& my quest to search for myself begins

when the sun sets.

When the sun sets,
I know that the day is almost ending.
"What have I done today?"
I ask myself.
But hardly have I answered
"I have done the best I could ever have!"

When the moon finally rises,
how can I stand up tall and proud
saying that I'd given my 100%?

I believe I could reach new heights if I set myself to.
But until now, I don't seem to remember myself doing it.
No, I should say never had never make myself do it.
How can I spell determination when it always deter?

Time and tide waits for no man,
With time even great mountain crumbles,
And great king falls.
Could I finally make a choice to change this life forever?
This I could not answer.
Only time could tell.

Before the moon fades away tonight,
I must make this change,
this choice,
this decision.

And when the sun finally sets tomorrow,
I could stand up tall and proud,
Saying I had done my best today...

An entry written in the form of poetry...
lol...

& the moon illuminated the dark night.

A blog for stories

Yay i just made a blog for writing stories... To those writers out there plz feel free to donate me more stories..

And to those who don't really want to write plz just visit and make it a more lively place ok?

Thank you very much...

And the place to go is

http://losteuthopia.blogspot.com/

that's all later...

Do re mi....

Do re mi fa so la ti do....

Does this sound familiar? Well of course we have been hearing this since we are still toddlers.. And yet now when I'm so much older, I'm beginning to see these 8 notes in a very different way... I learned these 8 notes in piano where Do is C, Re is D, Mi is E and so forth.. And now instead of learning them with an instrument, I'm back to square one, where I am back to learning it vocally.

And yet the ability to master it vocally differs from mastering it with an instrument. With an instrument you can go beyond the middle group, which means you can reach the higher and lower groups of notes. But that's not possible in singing. For you see every body's vocal range differs. Hence, the many different types of singers are born. We have the opera singers, R & B singers, Soul singers, rock and roll singers.... And there are even those who are able to master and grasp all types of singing style due to their wide vocal range..

Well as for me I'm still finding my vocal range. But until now, I haven't been able to hit a high note well. With some practice i might be able to it, I hope.....But mastering isn't an easy thing, you have to put in a lot of sweat and blood and most importantly time. It's amusing how something we thought we knew could turn out to be something we know nothing of at all..Look like I still have a long way to go and a lot of things to learn in this life..

& life is a longer journey than I'd ever expected

Tagged and untagged

Instructions: Remove ONE question from below, and add in your personal question, make it a total of 20 questions, then tag a few people in your list.

1. Who is your all-time inspiration?
An inspiring person (naturally)....

2. Have you given your first kiss away?
Obviously.....NOT....

3. If you were to be stranded on a deserted island, who are the 3 blog buddies you would take with you? Why?
blog buddies? can't think of anybut if i need to bring 3 people i would bring

a) carpenter/blacksmith (handyman)
b) medic (in herbal field)
C) a scientist
with them i won't have to be on the island but i can be with my real friends...
nice ain't it...

4. Where is the place that you want to go the most?
cameron highlands or anywhere cool not freezing

5. If you can have 1 dream to come true, what would it be?
Have the ability to bend time and space (which includes stopping time and going anywhere in a blink of an eye and stuff u can do when u bend time and space)

6. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain?
If there is sunlight yes...
Rainbow is formed due to the dispersion of light when it hits a rain drop..Seriously duhz....

7. What are you afraid to lose the most now?
I'm afraid to lose myself...

8. If you win $1 million, what would you do?
I would put some in the bank and share a portion with my parents...

9. If you meet someone that you love, would you confess to him/her?
Not until I've figure her and understand her more and understand how i really feel towards her..
For me I'd never let history repet itself...
Die history die... hahaha

10.List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you.
Ikky:
*Good anime/manga introducer
*Good criticiser (makes me aware, motivativated and makes me pissed off Xp )
*Can be asked to do some stuff

11. What are the requirements that you wish from your other half?
The other half should be able to fit the half that is me...
I don't wanna elaborate more haha...
I don't want people to change just to fit me... Xp

12. Which type of person do you hate the most?
A Backstabber...

13. What is your ambition?
Pharmacist/lecturer (any one)

14. If you have faults, would you rather the people around you point out to you or would you rather they keep quiet?
TELL ME NOW!!!

15. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
Intellegence,abilty to socialise and MONEY!

16. Are you a shopaholic or not?
Nope

17. Find a word to describe the person who tagged you.
Ikky- critical criticiser

18. If you have a chance. Which part of your character you would like to change?
Take away my lazy bone...

19. Whats the last shocking thing you've seen or heard?
The last shocking thing i saw
was this [Whats the last shocking thing you've seen or heard?]
shocking ain't it...

20.Do you have any friend you can depend on every time you need a someone to talk to?
friends nope but family yes!

me tag:
Ikky
Kim