Sunday, December 13, 2009

Of the journey so far & taking candy from a baby..

It's been such a long time since I actually blogged. But I don't think it'll be any different even if I blog; no one bothers to visit anyways.. Still, I've decide to blog anyhow, course hey i'm just a guy leaving some of his memories online, that won't do any harm now or will it?

Well for starters, my end of semester exam ended on the 10th this month with physics as the final paper. After the paper me and my friends went up to mid valley to catch "storm warriors 2" the movie.

The movie sucked hardcore. Too much slow motions, effects and too closed up during the fighting scene(you only see blurry figures flying about =.=).. Well at least I learned that it sucked.. hahaha.. After walking around midvalley for who knows how long, we finally squashed ourselves in the crowded ktm and made our way back home. I however stayed over at my friend's house.

I took a 5.30pm bus back home to JB from seremban. This trip was somehow fun & unusual..lolz.. There was this little kid who sat infront of me, at the start of the trip he was rather jumpy, then he stood up on his seat and looked at me. Or actually he scanned the whole back of the bus. I slept for an hour then woke up.. I didn't know how it happend but I started playing with the little kid, and boy was it a tiring trip since then.. haha.. but it's fun.. After a little while the kid asked his grandma to give me a candy.. So now i know the feeling of taking candy from a baby? haha... well thats bout it.. I reached JB at bout 9.00 Pm and bid farewell to the kid.. And here are some pictures of the kid to end my entry..

Keep the cam away?


He's to playing "catch" me if you can with me...

Sunday, October 25, 2009

Of self finding and losing

It's been almost half a semester I'm back to college. Life is a little different now. For the past few months, I lost myself. But I finally found myself again after facing some problems. I think things will turn for the better now.

It's really complicated on how to explain how I had actually lost myself. Lets just simply put it as I've lost my sense of direction. I lost focus on what I had ever wanted to achieve. But the most important part is I must never let myself lose control.

In the few months that had made the half semester, I found out that taking up things are easy, the only problem lies with letting go. How do you actually let go of something you have become rather attached to? The answer to that might lie within myself, and maybe self reflection could enlighten me.

Every day is a new beginning and ends when the new day arrives. Leave the past behind but embrace the lessons, and live the day like you are meant to live. Enjoy every feeling you have ever felt and part when it's time to part.

That's all for today i guess.. Some nonsentical blabber I just feel like writing out. heh.. later

Monday, August 17, 2009

A moment of reprive

Well as anticipated, the break finally came right after the exams ended. As usual, it's time to rest and prepare myself for the war that is brewing just beyond the horizon. Life at home is of course comfortable, there's a quote which says "no place like home" I suppose that is what it means.

Anyways these few days at home had been fun but yet not fruitful. I suppose that breaks are supposed to be like that. Taking off your burdens for a bit and then let yourself enjoy before setting off on another journey. I honestly hope that the next journey will lead me closer to my target.Life's journey consists of frequent crossroads and we can't never travel both. When the choice is made, we can't go back to where we start.

That's that for this entry.. nothing much to say anyways.. later

Tuesday, July 28, 2009

Towards the end

Only two weeks left till the end of the semester. Life seems to be more bustling with life in these recent days. I guess the main reason is because end of sem exams are coming soon and everyone are changing into their study gears. Though there still seem to be some who are still slacking away. Anyways it's their choice.

The week so far had been crazy, really crazy. A week filled with quizes and exams. Everyone just seem so well busy i guess preparing for it. Nevertheless, some people are still trying to slack till the eleventh hour before they finally want to make a move. I suppose doing that for them is really alright, i mean there are some people who could do it after all. As for me, the eleventh hour proves too short a time for me. So it's time to tighten up that belt and hold on tight for the last ride for the sem.

I'm so looking forward to going home after so many months out here. It sure is nice being able to stay at home. Well not that i get much studying done at home but well at least i can rest up a bit at home before another gruesome long semester starts. Heh, well now is not the time to think bout that..

Time to work hard and kick ass...


Monday, June 29, 2009

In a sea of doubt...

The past few weeks had been just crazy. Fluctuating moods, emotions and additude left me standing there speechless with an utterly blank expression on the skin you call a face. Assignments after assignments and the test that just passed a few days, didn't manage to turn me into a sleep deprived zombie, rather I somehow have a habit to take long afternoon naps now.

To tell the truth, long afternoon naps is acting as a double edge sword. It lets me stay up late into the night but leaves me drained in the morning ;more energised in the evening but less time to do work and other stuff in the afternoon. Well I guess it really is time to do some balancing out and more time reflecting on it.

During these few solitary weekends in an almost deserted college, I found myself lost again. Lost as in lost my direction for the future. All this time I am aiming to be a Doctor, but then again is becoming a Doctor what I really want out of life? Can my mediocre results and big lazy bone pull me through all the years needed to be a full fledged Doctor? I really don't know. But one thing is for sure, that is to take things one step at a time. Come on I mean taking all the pure science subjects in A levels can't be that bad right? Or am I wrong?

Coming back to recent events, the outbreak of A (H1N1) disease has finally reached more than 100 cases in Malaysia. More and more people in my class are catching flu, and minor sickness in the recent weeks. Would an outbreak of A (H1N1) disease happen here in Inti Uc? If it does would I be a victim? I'm not really afraid of it though. I believe if a person's will is strong enough, the person would be able to overcome the disease(with medical aid of course).

In other news, King of Pop, MJ, passed away due to a cardiac arrest.Cardiac arrest is one of the top killers in the world, and i guess even the king of pop could not avoid it. Well rest in peace Michael Jackson, God bless your soul. This also serves a reminder to be more health concious and be wary of what you eat. As the saying goes "You are what you eat."

Well other than some minor events that happened to me, like getting a new handphone, having some not too good test results, playing some Dragonica, and etc. That's bout all I have to write for this entry. Well that's that.


Sunday, June 14, 2009


It's been more than a month since I last tread into Inti UC.. Life here is really a rollercoaster ride. There are days so bad you wish you haven't woken up on that day at all; there are also days where things goes on so smoothly that you forget what even happened on that day itself.Maybe this is what they mean by a rollercoaster life? Pehaps it was meant to be that way.

These few weeks of my life had been so busy. There are just too much to be done and too little time. It's all really crazy. There are test coming up, MPW projects to be done, revisions to be done, guitar to practice, dance to learn.. Seriously I think i'm going insane. Sometimes i wish the week is one day longer, then I'd have more time to get things done. But life would be meaning-less that way. I mean to live life to the fullest is to used up every damn moment of it rite? That is what I think.

My phone broke down again. The damn thing keeps on giving me problem... So I'm going to get a new phone. This time I'm changing back to nokia,a freaking durable phone model.. I think it can last for a longer time now without giving me any problems.

Ever since I started to accept things as they are, I felt that I really have less to lement on and less problems to worry about. Just take things on as they come a long, taking one step at a time. Perhaps that's the pace I should take. I might not be the best in everything, but I think I should be okay if I give it my all.

That's all today..


Saturday, May 09, 2009

A new life ???

The long awaited college life has begun. It's been more than a week since i arrived here in Inti University College located in Nilai, Negeri Sembilan. The first few days of orientation reminded me so so so so much of plkn camp. Group games and all. As usual you need a group name and cheer, IT'S EXACTLY WHAT WE ALWAYS HAVE TO DO IN PLKN CLASSES! These are normal things for me, but i'm appointed group leader? =.=!!

Well orientation passed rather quickly. The activities were not that bad after all. The first week of lectures are mostly introduction of ourselves and getting to know more bout our syllabus. Well it's okay. Some of the lecturers had already begun teaching a little of the syllabus. It's rather interesting. Though I think i'm already seeing stars.. Haha.. I can thank the 6 months of not studying. I NEED BRAIN POLISH!! HAHAHA!
ok i guess it's time for pictures! LA~

My hostel.. Block P ^^

The english language center.. I don't think i'll need to go in there.. lol

basketball court! I don't play here.. lolz.. not my type of ball..

they have seats here at basketball court..

Ok this is the place i will go to.. lol.. swimming pool!

The mental problem hospital.. its the multi purpose hall..

The toilet is that way >>>>

Squash court... but the door reflects light

Bridge to lectures! The bridge of information hahaha..

The fooball field is yonder!

The slope actually looks steep from the bridge.. hahaha

Thirsty? Drink here!

The learning resource centre.. The library is inside!

Class rooms are labeled this way

And they look like this!

Tuesday, April 07, 2009

Crossroad of fate.

Sec school ended a long time ago. But, that itself was not a beginning. The real story began after spm results were released. As usual the first few chapters of the book is nothing useful, other than the basic introduction to the main character and some minor characters that will soon be forgotten towards the end. My life, is currently in that chapter. Days slowly passed by, and I await the arrival of the letter that will determine the progression of my story.

With each different choice made, there will be a different ending, a different path. For now I just really hope I can get into "matrikulasi" local matriculation.During this global economical crisis, it's a very crucial that I get that for it will ease the burden shouldered by my aging parents.

The path ahead is not an easy one. I can already foreshadow the events yet to come. Yet, all I can do now is wait and nothing but wait as the future slowly flips over, unrevealing itself as the present. The story had begun, but the future has not been decided, the ending has not been drafted. Perhaps this calm and smooth going perface of mine is actually the calm before the storm.

Monday, April 06, 2009

Korean Food!!

I stayed at my grandpa house for a few days after my spm result was out.. Then My uncle brought me to have korean food located near INTI COLLEGE NILAI..

I can't believe I went for korean food.. hahaha.. The First time? But seriously it's really not bad..wahaha.. Well I won't be saying much but lets just show you pictures... Yay pictures...

The korean Restaurant! Food INSIDE!!

On the way in..OMG I can't wait..

My uncle and his family who brought me here..Thank you uncle.. haha

Lets start with kimchi.. Which ones first? I guess i'll just eat all! Muahaha

Ooh ooh sizzling meat.. Can I eat it yet? Huh it's still raw! >.<

Yes Yes.. Done.. Done.. Waaa Smells delicious..

Take a pic? haha.. Eh it's kinna fatty? >.<

Lets see, So i have to wrap this with lettuces leaf , chillie and garlic.. Hey where's my garlic??

Aiks, my cuz's already eatting.. and so fast too? I need to start eating.. Ish no more picture..

And that's the end of my photo spree.. Ate my fill that night, there was also spicy nian gao, miso soup, and ban fan( the one you mixed everyting with rice and there's raw egg in the middle).

Huahaha.. A meal well ate? X3 I'm going to go again.. when i have enough cash.. huhu cost a lot.. lucky my uncle's the one paying hahaha..

well that's all.. and I went home satisfied that night..

Saturday, April 04, 2009


I've delayed this post for long enough..
I've to get it updated sooner or later..
well here it goes...

Plkn log #2

I'm back to camp again after the new year break. Most of them aren't back from their holidays yet.. They extended their holidays and I did not. Seeing my friends in camp again feels rather strange. Not to say exactly happy, nor sad, but definitely more than neutral. Eh what do you call that? heh..

There is just too much to write a bout if i'm going to write on a day to day basis.. So Let me just highlight the major events.

First Off is water sport..
Water Sports consists of kayaking [Single, double mixed double.] and rafting.. I took part in rafting. It was my first time going for rafting.. and boy was it hard.. It's a 10 person team, 8 rowers, one flagman and one guy at the rear.. Paddling was freaking hard.. I never thought it would be.. My team lost the race, cuz someone fell in the water.. Well too bad for us I guess..
We Still got 2nd place for the overall score. It ain't half bad.

Next is shooting. The camp does not have a shooting range. So we went to a shooting range owned by the military and police. We get to use a M-16 on a 50 meter range. The shots were very loud from the distance. But when I actually get to fire the gun, it's not loud at all, just clanking of the shells could be heard.. I got a 93% accuracy rating.. haha..though there are 9 people who got 100%..

Jungle trekking/camping.
This is the first time trekking deep into a jungle.. And seriously it's not just any jungle but the jungle just over the hill from my camp. So we have to make our way up the hill and down the hill to out camp side.. The time showed 6am, reluctantly I peeled open my eyes. A few of the florescent lamp had been switched on. It hurts just keeping my eyes open. After dressing in full uniform we were assembled in the marching field for further instructions. The bag packed feels like a ton. If I've know the bag straps were so short i wouldn't have packed the damned 1.5 liters of mineral water. Also to add the 800 or 900 ml of water in my tumble they supply. Boy were the tumblers heavy. The past few days were raining so the road up hill were slippery. On the way up, a rather big sized Indian girl trainee was careless and twisted her ankle. Well ouch and sorry you'll have to roll down the hill. Eh I mean limp down the hill. Xp

As we walk higher up the hill, the bottle feels heavier and heavier and the bag feels like a ton to two ton then three ton. Just like positive arithmetic progression. Luckily it's not gp. The whole trip had been very enjoyable. BUT VERY VERY TIRING.. There were rescue mission and herbal hunt. But no ghost hunt at night. It started raining when evening came so ghost hunt was CANCELED. The weather was cooling and I slept like a log. Or rather slept on a log? Haha..

Last In line was closing ceremony.
I was in the closing ceremony marching squad. Practice was rather easy because it was exactly like the open day. There was training to help us remember just in case we forget. Everything went well. Later that night I was in a malay dance? lolz.. Damn it was a night to remember.. BUt the most memorable thing that night was the inevitable parting on the next day. Coaches that were very close to trainee's were crying. Of cuz there are alot of trainee who cried.. Not me though, the effect set in on me the parting day itself. I almost cried. well almost. Tears were welling up but i suck them all back into my eyeball. If that is how you describe it.. haha..

well I'm all done.. now for pictures.. but there isn't much.. anyway here goes..

I proudly Introduce My company's flag! The Charlie company flag.. woot

My Dorm.. Dorm E the dorm I've spent 3 months in. And that's Joshua at the front.

The assembly place.. We assemble here every morning before 6.30am

The Cafe and behind is the hill we have to climb over to reach the camp site.

One of the most relaxing spot in camp..

The Charlie Squad Leader.. A man with guts and can make freaking scary war faces..

Chang Yeong, Me(in malay traditional wear) and Yong Hong

Choon Yap my good buddy and wallet keeper when i go for a shower.

My good buddy gang..
Front: Leon, Aaron, me
Back: Ah kong..(he's big but freaking funny and good to disturb...hahaha)

That's all the picture..
well that's all..

Friday, April 03, 2009

old drawings resurfaced

One of the oldest art

Drawn for small Shar Linn(lawlz)

Drawn when I was bored(one of the oldest also)

Another art drawn for a friend!

Monday, January 26, 2009

PLKN Log #1

Plkn log #1

28/12/08 - 24/01/09

Location: Camp De' Bana

I never thought that I'd be chosen for PLKN. But I was in the end. The flashing text on my phone which congratulate me for being chosen hit me with mixed feelings. To rejoice or perhaps not.

The day finally came. On the 28th of December. The day I embarked on a journey which is beginning to change my life in some ways. On the day itself, I wasn't in my top form. I had diarrhoea the day before. The journey to camp wasn't a pleasant one. The seat was uncomfortable and everyone seems so alien to me.

When I finally reached camp, I was really shocked. The camp is very big and empty. Not forgetting a bit badly designed.

The first week was the hardest to pass by. My diarrhoea problem didn't seem to cease. All the food they serve there are spicy ones. That didn't do any good for my problem.

Things started getting better on the second week. I got to know my dorm mates better. Not to mention all the company members. I am proud to say I'm glad to be a member of the Charlie Company. Of course that doesn't mean I've forgotten all about the friends who came together with me. I still go and look for them when I have extra time to spare.

Despite all the people I like hanging around with, there are still those who I do not adore so much. One of them is known as kepala bocor(leaking head) he got the name because on the 2nd week he knocked his head in the bathroom because he was running around. 5 stiches on the wound. He's a bit crazy. He'll always be the first one rushing off to the unknown. The most hillarious thing is he always wants to be the leader when he has no leadership qualities.

Mr. Kerusi (chair) is well another one of the person I try my very best to bear with. He's the most hypocritical I've ever encountered in my entire existence. Even he knows it. In open sharing, he fake a speech saying he wants to change his behaviour and all. He even say it till he almost cry himself. But nothing change at all after that. He's back to his usual self. Very fake in everything he does. How can he live with himself? Haha.. God really does make people come in various varieties.

The most intersting thing that happen so far in camp was long range navigation. We went up and down hills, into bushes, shrubs, hedges , through rubber and oil palm plantations. The whole journey too my company 5 hours and 16 minutes to complete. But at the end of the day the teacher say we cheated a little because we went off bearing a lot by walking on the man made road. We are supposed to follow the bearing no matter which direction it pointed at. Haha oh well.

The next big event is open day on 24th Jan 09. I took part in marching. After two weeks of marching, it was finally the day. We did static marching( turning left, right, back, front, one step forward, four steps to the right, etc.) , dynamic marching( saluting front, side, backturn, marching etc.) and lastly formation marching. Training was very tiring. In the end it was worth is because everything went well on the day itself.

That is also the day I made my way back here. To Johor Bahru. My home. It's been two days i'm back home. I'll be going back to camp on 28th again. Kinna fast. Oh well, it'll just have to do.

The next time I come back home, I'll make sure I take pictures. As memories.

Till 11th march then..