In a sea of doubt...

The past few weeks had been just crazy. Fluctuating moods, emotions and additude left me standing there speechless with an utterly blank expression on the skin you call a face. Assignments after assignments and the test that just passed a few days, didn't manage to turn me into a sleep deprived zombie, rather I somehow have a habit to take long afternoon naps now.

To tell the truth, long afternoon naps is acting as a double edge sword. It lets me stay up late into the night but leaves me drained in the morning ;more energised in the evening but less time to do work and other stuff in the afternoon. Well I guess it really is time to do some balancing out and more time reflecting on it.

During these few solitary weekends in an almost deserted college, I found myself lost again. Lost as in lost my direction for the future. All this time I am aiming to be a Doctor, but then again is becoming a Doctor what I really want out of life? Can my mediocre results and big lazy bone pull me through all the years needed to be a full fledged Doctor? I really don't know. But one thing is for sure, that is to take things one step at a time. Come on I mean taking all the pure science subjects in A levels can't be that bad right? Or am I wrong?

Coming back to recent events, the outbreak of A (H1N1) disease has finally reached more than 100 cases in Malaysia. More and more people in my class are catching flu, and minor sickness in the recent weeks. Would an outbreak of A (H1N1) disease happen here in Inti Uc? If it does would I be a victim? I'm not really afraid of it though. I believe if a person's will is strong enough, the person would be able to overcome the disease(with medical aid of course).

In other news, King of Pop, MJ, passed away due to a cardiac arrest.Cardiac arrest is one of the top killers in the world, and i guess even the king of pop could not avoid it. Well rest in peace Michael Jackson, God bless your soul. This also serves a reminder to be more health concious and be wary of what you eat. As the saying goes "You are what you eat."

Well other than some minor events that happened to me, like getting a new handphone, having some not too good test results, playing some Dragonica, and etc. That's bout all I have to write for this entry. Well that's that.

Later..

ROLLER COASTER @.@ !!

It's been more than a month since I last tread into Inti UC.. Life here is really a rollercoaster ride. There are days so bad you wish you haven't woken up on that day at all; there are also days where things goes on so smoothly that you forget what even happened on that day itself.Maybe this is what they mean by a rollercoaster life? Pehaps it was meant to be that way.

These few weeks of my life had been so busy. There are just too much to be done and too little time. It's all really crazy. There are test coming up, MPW projects to be done, revisions to be done, guitar to practice, dance to learn.. Seriously I think i'm going insane. Sometimes i wish the week is one day longer, then I'd have more time to get things done. But life would be meaning-less that way. I mean to live life to the fullest is to used up every damn moment of it rite? That is what I think.

My phone broke down again. The damn thing keeps on giving me problem... So I'm going to get a new phone. This time I'm changing back to nokia,a freaking durable phone model.. I think it can last for a longer time now without giving me any problems.

Ever since I started to accept things as they are, I felt that I really have less to lement on and less problems to worry about. Just take things on as they come a long, taking one step at a time. Perhaps that's the pace I should take. I might not be the best in everything, but I think I should be okay if I give it my all.

That's all today..

Ciaox..

A new life ???

The long awaited college life has begun. It's been more than a week since i arrived here in Inti University College located in Nilai, Negeri Sembilan. The first few days of orientation reminded me so so so so much of plkn camp. Group games and all. As usual you need a group name and cheer, IT'S EXACTLY WHAT WE ALWAYS HAVE TO DO IN PLKN CLASSES! These are normal things for me, but i'm appointed group leader? =.=!!

Well orientation passed rather quickly. The activities were not that bad after all. The first week of lectures are mostly introduction of ourselves and getting to know more bout our syllabus. Well it's okay. Some of the lecturers had already begun teaching a little of the syllabus. It's rather interesting. Though I think i'm already seeing stars.. Haha.. I can thank the 6 months of not studying. I NEED BRAIN POLISH!! HAHAHA!

ok i guess it's time for pictures! LA~

My hostel.. Block P ^^

The english language center.. I don't think i'll need to go in there.. lol

basketball court! I don't play here.. lolz.. not my type of ball..

they have seats here at basketball court..

Ok this is the place i will go to.. lol.. swimming pool!

The mental problem hospital.. lol..na its the multi purpose hall..

The toilet is that way >>>>

Squash court... but the door reflects light

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Bridge to lectures! The bridge of information hahaha..

The fooball field is yonder!

The slope actually looks steep from the bridge.. hahaha


Thirsty? Drink here!

The learning resource centre.. The library is inside!

Class rooms are labeled this way

And they look like this!

Crossroad of fate.

Sec school ended a long time ago. But, that itself was not a beginning. The real story began after spm results were released. As usual the first few chapters of the book is nothing useful, other than the basic introduction to the main character and some minor characters that will soon be forgotten towards the end. My life, is currently in that chapter. Days slowly passed by, and I await the arrival of the letter that will determine the progression of my story.

With each different choice made, there will be a different ending, a different path. For now I just really hope I can get into "matrikulasi" local matriculation.During this global economical crisis, it's a very crucial that I get that for it will ease the burden shouldered by my aging parents.

The path ahead is not an easy one. I can already foreshadow the events yet to come. Yet, all I can do now is wait and nothing but wait as the future slowly flips over, unrevealing itself as the present. The story had begun, but the future has not been decided, the ending has not been drafted. Perhaps this calm and smooth going perface of mine is actually the calm before the storm.

Korean Food!!

I stayed at my grandpa house for a few days after my spm result was out.. Then My uncle brought me to have korean food located near INTI COLLEGE NILAI..

I can't believe I went for korean food.. hahaha.. The First time? But seriously it's really not bad..wahaha.. Well I won't be saying much but lets just show you pictures... Yay pictures...


The korean Restaurant! Food INSIDE!!


On the way in..OMG I can't wait..


My uncle and his family who brought me here..Thank you uncle.. haha


Lets start with kimchi.. Which ones first? I guess i'll just eat all! Muahaha


Ooh ooh sizzling meat.. Can I eat it yet? Huh it's still raw! >.<


Yes Yes.. Done.. Done.. Waaa Smells delicious..


Take a pic? haha.. Eh it's kinna fatty? >.<


Lets see, So i have to wrap this with lettuces leaf , chillie and garlic.. Hey where's my garlic??



Aiks, my cuz's already eatting.. and so fast too? I need to start eating.. Ish no more picture..

And that's the end of my photo spree.. Ate my fill that night, there was also spicy nian gao, miso soup, and ban fan( the one you mixed everyting with rice and there's raw egg in the middle).

Huahaha.. A meal well ate? X3 I'm going to go again.. when i have enough cash.. huhu cost a lot.. lucky my uncle's the one paying hahaha..

well that's all.. and I went home satisfied that night..

Delayed

I've delayed this post for long enough..
I've to get it updated sooner or later..
well here it goes...

Plkn log #2

I'm back to camp again after the new year break. Most of them aren't back from their holidays yet.. They extended their holidays and I did not. Seeing my friends in camp again feels rather strange. Not to say exactly happy, nor sad, but definitely more than neutral. Eh what do you call that? heh..

There is just too much to write a bout if i'm going to write on a day to day basis.. So Let me just highlight the major events.

First Off is water sport..
Water Sports consists of kayaking [Single, double mixed double.] and rafting.. I took part in rafting. It was my first time going for rafting.. and boy was it hard.. It's a 10 person team, 8 rowers, one flagman and one guy at the rear.. Paddling was freaking hard.. I never thought it would be.. My team lost the race, cuz someone fell in the water.. Well too bad for us I guess..
We Still got 2nd place for the overall score. It ain't half bad.

Next is shooting. The camp does not have a shooting range. So we went to a shooting range owned by the military and police. We get to use a M-16 on a 50 meter range. The shots were very loud from the distance. But when I actually get to fire the gun, it's not loud at all, just clanking of the shells could be heard.. I got a 93% accuracy rating.. haha..though there are 9 people who got 100%..

Jungle trekking/camping.
This is the first time trekking deep into a jungle.. And seriously it's not just any jungle but the jungle just over the hill from my camp. So we have to make our way up the hill and down the hill to out camp side.. The time showed 6am, reluctantly I peeled open my eyes. A few of the florescent lamp had been switched on. It hurts just keeping my eyes open. After dressing in full uniform we were assembled in the marching field for further instructions. The bag packed feels like a ton. If I've know the bag straps were so short i wouldn't have packed the damned 1.5 liters of mineral water. Also to add the 800 or 900 ml of water in my tumble they supply. Boy were the tumblers heavy. The past few days were raining so the road up hill were slippery. On the way up, a rather big sized Indian girl trainee was careless and twisted her ankle. Well ouch and sorry you'll have to roll down the hill. Eh I mean limp down the hill. Xp

As we walk higher up the hill, the bottle feels heavier and heavier and the bag feels like a ton to two ton then three ton. Just like positive arithmetic progression. Luckily it's not gp. The whole trip had been very enjoyable. BUT VERY VERY TIRING.. There were rescue mission and herbal hunt. But no ghost hunt at night. It started raining when evening came so ghost hunt was CANCELED. The weather was cooling and I slept like a log. Or rather slept on a log? Haha..

Last In line was closing ceremony.
I was in the closing ceremony marching squad. Practice was rather easy because it was exactly like the open day. There was training to help us remember just in case we forget. Everything went well. Later that night I was in a malay dance? lolz.. Damn it was a night to remember.. BUt the most memorable thing that night was the inevitable parting on the next day. Coaches that were very close to trainee's were crying. Of cuz there are alot of trainee who cried.. Not me though, the effect set in on me the parting day itself. I almost cried. well almost. Tears were welling up but i suck them all back into my eyeball. If that is how you describe it.. haha..

well I'm all done.. now for pictures.. but there isn't much.. anyway here goes..



I proudly Introduce My company's flag! The Charlie company flag.. woot



My Dorm.. Dorm E the dorm I've spent 3 months in. And that's Joshua at the front.


The assembly place.. We assemble here every morning before 6.30am


The Cafe and behind is the hill we have to climb over to reach the camp site.


One of the most relaxing spot in camp..


The Charlie Squad Leader.. A man with guts and can make freaking scary war faces..


Chang Yeong, Me(in malay traditional wear) and Yong Hong


Choon Yap my good buddy and wallet keeper when i go for a shower.


My good buddy gang..
Front: Leon, Aaron, me
Back: Ah kong..(he's big but freaking funny and good to disturb...hahaha)

That's all the picture..
haha..
well that's all..
later

old drawings resurfaced

One of the oldest art


Drawn for small Shar Linn(lawlz)


Drawn when I was bored(one of the oldest also)


Another art drawn for a friend!

PLKN Log #1

Plkn log #1

28/12/08 - 24/01/09

Location: Camp De' Bana

I never thought that I'd be chosen for PLKN. But I was in the end. The flashing text on my phone which congratulate me for being chosen hit me with mixed feelings. To rejoice or perhaps not.

The day finally came. On the 28th of December. The day I embarked on a journey which is beginning to change my life in some ways. On the day itself, I wasn't in my top form. I had diarrhoea the day before. The journey to camp wasn't a pleasant one. The seat was uncomfortable and everyone seems so alien to me.

When I finally reached camp, I was really shocked. The camp is very big and empty. Not forgetting a bit badly designed.

The first week was the hardest to pass by. My diarrhoea problem didn't seem to cease. All the food they serve there are spicy ones. That didn't do any good for my problem.

Things started getting better on the second week. I got to know my dorm mates better. Not to mention all the company members. I am proud to say I'm glad to be a member of the Charlie Company. Of course that doesn't mean I've forgotten all about the friends who came together with me. I still go and look for them when I have extra time to spare.

Despite all the people I like hanging around with, there are still those who I do not adore so much. One of them is known as kepala bocor(leaking head) he got the name because on the 2nd week he knocked his head in the bathroom because he was running around. 5 stiches on the wound. He's a bit crazy. He'll always be the first one rushing off to the unknown. The most hillarious thing is he always wants to be the leader when he has no leadership qualities.

Mr. Kerusi (chair) is well another one of the person I try my very best to bear with. He's the most hypocritical I've ever encountered in my entire existence. Even he knows it. In open sharing, he fake a speech saying he wants to change his behaviour and all. He even say it till he almost cry himself. But nothing change at all after that. He's back to his usual self. Very fake in everything he does. How can he live with himself? Haha.. God really does make people come in various varieties.

The most intersting thing that happen so far in camp was long range navigation. We went up and down hills, into bushes, shrubs, hedges , through rubber and oil palm plantations. The whole journey too my company 5 hours and 16 minutes to complete. But at the end of the day the teacher say we cheated a little because we went off bearing a lot by walking on the man made road. We are supposed to follow the bearing no matter which direction it pointed at. Haha oh well.

The next big event is open day on 24th Jan 09. I took part in marching. After two weeks of marching, it was finally the day. We did static marching( turning left, right, back, front, one step forward, four steps to the right, etc.) , dynamic marching( saluting front, side, backturn, marching etc.) and lastly formation marching. Training was very tiring. In the end it was worth is because everything went well on the day itself.

That is also the day I made my way back here. To Johor Bahru. My home. It's been two days i'm back home. I'll be going back to camp on 28th again. Kinna fast. Oh well, it'll just have to do.

The next time I come back home, I'll make sure I take pictures. As memories.

Till 11th march then..

Later!

Of Gramps

I think it's bout time I wrote bout my trip to my gramps before I embark on another journey. The trip to gramps was so darn tiring.. There are so many little cuzzins and their mum just ask us big cuzzin to take care of them.. Boy was it tiring.. So many little kiddies.. One of my uncle's children are damn stuborn and hot headed. The youngest son is barely starting kindergarten and he's already wacking me like no one's business.. Though it's not painful but a continuous hitting like that did leave some mark..One more thing, he aims at the cock.. =.=!!!

Well among the little kiddies i did have my fav cuzzin.. my youngest aunts son.. lolz.... Taking care of him is very tiring.. he runs around with so much energy and I have to carry him when he gets tired.. Then he runs again..well anyways here are some pictures.. One more thing, his sister has influenced him to act cute.. lolz.. so he always acts cute when you try to take a pic of him..


* him with his C pose on his face.. lolz *


* his sister.... also act cute.. haha*


* cousins just can't stop moving *


* there you go. younger aunts two child and the cuzzin who smack at mah cock =.= (at the most right) *


* random pic 1*


* random pic 2 *


* random pic 3*


* random pic 4*


* Random pic 5 *

well that's all there is.. ciox..

i'll post about the steamboat on the next entry..

buaiz...

Another Tag.. =.=!!

Tag by ikky..
I'm so not in any mood to do it..
what the heck..
I'll do it anyways..

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starting time: 1414 hours (+ 8 GMT)
name: Max
sisters: zzzz--heeee-rhooow
Brothers: one
shoe size: 10-11
height: 174 ++ (not sure)

where do you live: on earth? (malaysia)
Favorite drink: Depends on mah mood..
Favorite Breakfast: Dim Sum
Have you even been on a plane: Yeee-sss-shhh
Swam in the ocean: ya
Slept in class: ya whatever..

Broken someone's heart: perhaps.. even if i did i have no idea..
Fell off your chair: Yer
Sat by the phone all night waiting for someone to call: NO
Saved e mails: yeah, registration mails only..
What is your room like: Like a room.. seriously.. what else can it be?
What's beside you: Obviously not you.. air perhaps..

What is the last thing you ate: food
Ever had chicken pox: Duhz..
Sore throat: ya.. =.=
Stitches: No
Broken nose: No
Do you believe in first at first sight: No.. must be very naive if I did
Like picnics: No, I rather be in a restaurant..
Who's the last person you danced with: Mah-self
Last made you smile: My own joke.
You last yelled at: younger Bro
Talk to someone you like: Not for 5 years?
Kissed anyone: Yeah lil cuzzins..

Get sick: Yes
Talked to an ex: No idea
Miss someone: yeah my younger bro, he dodged when i hit him..
Do you sleep with stuff animals: long ago when my age was single digit
What's under your bed: floor
What do you really hate: fxxxers..

Time now:1428 hours (+ 8 GMT)

Is there a person on your mind now: NO
Any Siblings: You just asked on top..
Do you want children: Maybe
Do you smile often: Sometimes
Do you like you hand writing: It's unique..
Are your toe painted: NO I"m a guy dammit..

Who's bed other than yours would you rather sleep in: Any one with a water bed..
What's the colour of your shirt: Black
What were you doing at 7 pm yesterday: No idea
I can't wait to: fucking finish this tag..
When did you last cry: Don't know..
Are you a friendly person: Not really

Do you have any pets: fish
Where is the person you have feelings for right now: Have not met her yet
Did the last person you held hands with mean anything to you now: yeah helping my "DAD" cross the road.
Do you sleep with the tv on: NO
Who was the person you last cried in front of: Parents maybe.. no idea..
How many people can you say you've really loved: Parents

Do you eat healthy: probably
So you have pic of you and your ex: I don't even have an ex..=.=
Have you ever cried because of something someone said to you: NO
How often do you go to temple: No idea
If you're having a bad day, who are you most likely to go to: Duno.. Celine perhaps..
Are you loud or quiet most of the time: LOUD

Are you confident: Yeah, when i'm sure something is really right..
What are you doing now: Breathing
Have you ever crawled through a window: Perhaps
Can you handle the truth: Yeah.. I always want them..
Are you closer to your mum or dad: both.

Things you did 10 years ago: Breath
Things on your to do list today: Throw away school books.

5 snacks I enjoy
1)-
2)-
3)-
4)-
5)-

5 things i would do if I'm a billionaire:
1) Buy properties
2) Put it in Swizz bank
3) Go for more singing lessons.. and perhaps take up dancing too.
4) continue learning piano
5) give a few million to my parents

5 places I have lived in:
1) old house
2) new house
3) grandpa's house
4) uncle's house
5) hotel

5 jobs I had:
1) Student
2)student
3) student
4) student
5) school paparazzi editor

Time ended: 1452 hours (+8 GMT)

5 people to tag.
1) ikky - did
2) Kim
3) celine
4) shar linn
5)-

Lazy Afternoon

Yeah, nothing's more relaxing than a lazy afternoon. Cept for the fact that I'm almost bored out of my existence. It's afternoon and not even a soul is online ( my friends actually). I've read all the latest manga updates, checked my mails, replied my messages, played some games. Normally I'd be thrilled to be enjoying myself over these "complete-waste-of-time". Somehow it doesn't feel right. I feel kinna empty, weird and completely not myself.

Right, I almost forgot. Sec school's out for good. I'm now experiencing a lost of direction in life? Damn this is weird. Ah what the heck. I might as well enjoy the lazy afternoons. After all NS(National Service) is on 27th this month and I seriously won't be back till march. OK perhaps I'll be back for a week during Chinese New Year. After all it's the best time of the year. The festive season. Thinking bout that actually makes me feel kinna happy. But before that there is christmas..

Yay.. I have no idea why I like chirstmas that much. My family does not celebrate it and yet i'm actually happy christmas is coming. Maybe it's because of the christmas cartoons that will be shown on tv. Heh, never leave your childish side as they say.. It keeps one young? haha..Well that's that I suppose..

Ta

The End and The Beginning

SPM is over... Time really does fly doesn't it? I still remember the first day when I went to secondary school. All those memories has made me into who I am now. A change for the better perhaps. Well anyways secondary life has finally ended for me. Time to move on with life. The end of one part of life is the beginning of another.

It's really been quite a while since I last blogged hasn't it. Well since SPM is over I guess i'll start blogging again. But then I really have no idea what to blog about. Well anyways, I re-did my blog. This time I added a few personal touches. I did the pic on top myself.. lol.. Hope you all will give some comments?

I'm so darn blank today..Xp.. I guess that's it for now.. till next time.. tata

P/s to those who want me to linkie plz tell me.. thankiew

tagged

LAYER ONE:

* Name: Siow Yee Siang
* Birth date: 13th may
* Birthplace: malaysia
* Current Location: malaysia
* Eye color: Blackish brown
* Hair Color: black
* Righty or lefty: righty

LATER TWO:

* Your heritage: malaysian
* The shoes you wore today: Sandals
* Your weakness: Loud Voice
* Your fears: No food
* Your perfect pizza: No pizza.. makes me fat
* Goal you'd like to achieve in life: make lotsa money

LAYER THREE:

* Your most overused phrase on MSN : Xp
* Your first waking thoughts: Off the alarm
* Your best physical feature: hair
* Your most missed memory: Enjoying time with friends

LAYER FOUR:

* Pepsi or Coke: Coke
* McDonald's or Burger King: McD
* Single or group dates: both
* Adidas or Nike: Nike
* Lipton Ice tea or Nestea: Lipton Ice Tea
* Chocolate or Vanilla: chocolate
* Cappuccino or coffee: Cappuccino

LAYER FIVE:

* A famous person, dead or alive, would you interview: No Idea yet
* Movie can you watch and say the lines along with the actors: No Idea
* Name two of your passions in life: Singing,Drawing
* Least favorite time of day: i like it all cuz i don't have enought time

LAYER SIX:

* use hairspray or gel: neither or both
* Your favorite meal: High class food!
* Color on the inside of your head when you close your eyes: black
* Listen to classical music: yup
* Ever said LOL in real life without thinking about it: Never

Flowers and Flowers

" Roses are red my love,
Violets are bluee~
Sugar is Sweet my love,
but not as sweet as you "

A verse in an oldies I once heard and my dad taught it to me once. It's very corny because ever since the release of this song years ago, people have been using it over and Over and OVER again. But I'm not talking about love or sweet talk ( which I'm sure Celine has gotten many from Russel.. lol) I"m talking about flowers today. Yes the sweet smelling colours that bloom then bloom and dies. Generally speaking of course.

Don't get me wrong, I'm not talking about roses or violets, I'm going to talk about the flowers that I can find around my house. Call me an idiot if you will, but hey what can a guy do when he's bored out of his mind and the games are starting to get old and getting no reply from sms-es. Ok I'm sounding a bit emo, well w/e..


Ah this is a nice picture of a Bunga Raya or hibiscus ..
This one is pink in colour.. and it's in it's fullest bloom


And this is a red one.. Look at the big petals haha..
isn't it just red?


Look at that the flower is starting to whiter...
poor flower.. But dying is a natural process in life so bye flower!!



But when one dies, another is born.. so welcome new bud-lings!
Hope you'll do your best and bloom to your fullest!



From a bugs view, the hibiscus is like wow! hahahaha


I like this pic the most!
It so reminds me of the killer plant in the movie "the little shop of horrors"
I like meat! I've just ate your customer! Muahahaha..
Something like that only it's bigger and can talk..


Ok I so never seen this plant before till I spot it growing among weeds..
It's small cute and purple..haha.. Nice flower... My fave among those I saw today!


Look it's a flower so close together, looks like a couple.. haha.. makes me envious..
where's my other flower?? ^^



And this elegant flower is called the Amanda plant i think..
It's all yellow haha..
but it is pretty and has a style of it's own!



well this is the last one.. A yellow hibiscus!!
A very special one..

Haha and well that's all of the pictures that i've snapped..
Not much put it's a flower hunt in my house..
well that's all..
Later!!